I'm REALLY Not Good at This

Sidenote: This may be boring. If it is, I refer you to the title.

Matt and I have known for about 5 months that we were moving to Utah. I cried a few times about it and then just left it at that. I got to work trying to get things in order for it and with two children, my mind has been more than occupied. It's only been the last couple of days that the tiny breakdowns have been sneaking up on me. I haven't allowed my mind to go to certain things and different events have brought them to the surface.

Sunday, we had a surprise party! Krystin pulled together a surprise party with our family, for us! It was so much fun. We had dinner and visited with family. We received this super cool poster too. It has a candy note on the back. I should have written it down so I could put what it said on here, but too late because, guess what? It's packed! I held it together pretty well. No tears. That's not to say that I wasn't sad. It just hadn't hit me yet. I still don't think it's hit me totally. Cute, huh?

I visited with my 92-year-old Grandmother on Monday. William loves her and I think it has something to do with the fact that she gives him m&ms. Lily had a harder time at first, but she warmed up to Grandmother and gave her hugs and kisses. After we left, I had the first of my tiny breakdowns.

Yesterday was Savannah's 13th birthday! It was fun to go and spend more time with family. The Richardson's are so fun. I have loved getting closer to them and both of my kids love them! We had cake and ice cream and Savannah opened presents. We gave hugs and we left. -#2 of my tiny breakdowns when we got to the car.

Party on, Savannah, party on.

Here is Matt and Lily at Savannah's party. I couldn't help but to put it on here. I thought it was a good picture of them.

Last night, after we went to Savannah's party, we went to see Grandmama. It was great to visit with her and my kids love her. We got to take the red rocking chair that's in the picture home with us too. It's perfect size for Lily. Uncle Don and Aunt Lynda joked around with us, so it was a little easier saying goodbye.

We are leaving tomorrow, so I'm not sure when I'll be able to get another post up. But, Tennessee has been great for us and I know that there are so many reasons for coming out here. I won't put a list because I'm sure people are bored of this post. I know that we're supposed to move to Utah and we'll have reasons reveal themselves to us as they come, I'm sure.

Honestly, Matt and I really aren't good with saying "goodbye". Is anybody, really? I have so many mixed emotions, it's kind of hard to force myself to feel one feeling at a time. Does that make sense? I'm not sure the overwhelming outburst of tears will come until we're out in Utah and my parents aren't there. I guess we'll see.

I am going to miss my family. They are amazing people and my best friends. It's going to be hard to leave them. I'm not one to put my heart out on the line, but if walls could talk, you would all know how much I love you and will miss you. We'll miss our friends out here too. Fortunately, some of both parties are going to be moving to Utah soon!

More about Yours Truly

I was tagged by Jennifer!

10 years ago:
1. I was just beginning Young Women.
2. I was obsessing over any guy that looked my way.
3. I was absolutely HATING 7th grade at Apollo Middle School.
4. I was a cheerleader for the Astros.
5. I was going through the weird, big teeth, bad hair phase of my life.

Today's To-Do list:
1. Pack
2. Eat and feed children at least 3 times
3. Give Matt an evil look when he gets on my nerves. - It's the first day of Matt's unemployment. Man, it's weird.
4. Visit Grandmother
5. Pack some more

Favorite snacks:
1. Goldfish crackers
2. Hershey Bars
3. sonic drinks - especially Cranberry Dr. Pepper
4. Honey Bunches of Oats cereal
5. Brownies

If I were a millionaire:
1. Pay off my car and buy Matt a truck that he wants - maybe the potato truck.
2. Buy a house in Utah and a house in Tennessee
3. Pay off the family's debts that I can
4. Buy a new wardrobe for me and my kids. Oh.. and Matt, definitely.
5. Invest a lot

I've Lived:
1. Nashville,TN
2. Murray, UT
3. That's pretty much it...
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5.

Jobs:
1. I once worked at Whitney Education Company in Utah. I called people to remind them that they signed up for seminars. People hated us because they thought that we were telemarketers. We were not. I hated that job.
2. I worked at Best Buy in the CD and DVD department.
3. Now, I consider myself a teacher
4. And a cook
5. And a magician. - My kisses have magical healing powers.


Tag:
1. Stephanie Dunn
2. I think everyone else who I would tag has already been tagged!
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A Glimpse of Lily

None of you have heard about Lily in a while. How is she doing? She's as hilarious as ever. I have actually been able to get her to keep a hair bow in her hair about 2 hours a day, which is a BIG improvement. She's been talking more and more and she's into everything that Will is. She likes golf and cars. But, her true love is Winnie the Pooh. She has 2 Pooh bears and she loves any other kind of stuffed animals too. She's such a fun and sweet little girl. I love her like crazy!

I have a collection of four pictures below. You can tell with 3 out of 4 pictures that she's a pacifier girl. Anyway, I wanted to give you a glimpse of what makes me get up every morning.... with her wailing and screaming. Miss Sassy

She's such a pretty lady.

AH!

Okay, I couldn't help myself. I laugh every time she does this face. This is the face Lily makes when she shows people her food and she wants to see what you have in your mouth too. I don't know where she got that from.

Lily and Jennifer

This is Lily and my sister, Jennifer. I had to get a picture of them together because Lily absolutely Loves Jennifer, and I'm pretty sure the feelings are mutual. Anytime Jennifer comes over, Lily cuddles with her and loves her. When she leaves our house, Lily cries. Sometimes Lily even expects to leave with Jennifer.
I don't even know what to say about this picture, but my stomach hurts from laughing so hard.

Proud Parent Moment

Alright, now, I know that I just posted a video of William up yesterday. But, I had to post this today. Will was in the bathroom with me today while I was fixing my hair and he just started to count all by himself! AH! He counted to 6. Can I just say that I love this part of his life? It's so fun to get to know him and to talk to him and have him talk back. I've learned so much about him the past couple of months. Will's favorite color is yellow. His favorite number is 6, and he recognizes it in stores and on television, anywhere really. He likes the letters X and W. I don't know why, but he does! I'm learning a lot from him and I absolutely love teaching him new things about the world. Will's an awesome little boy. Sometimes it just hits me hard and my blog is my outlet today.

I hope you enjoy this video. I kind of had to coax it out of him at first. I love how he says, "fur" just so matter-of-factly. He's so dang cute!

You'll have to pause the music so you can hear it! Sorry!

The Best of Bobcat

When Will would hit the golf ball, he would hit wherever he deemed worthy of his presence. So, every now and then someone would get smacked in the face with a plastic ball -or a plastic golf club. Not very pleasant. Especially when Lily was the victim. So, Matt and I found the solution to our problem. In the golf aisle at Target, we found a slab of fake grass that had a hole where a rubber tee is placed.
Why is this a solution?
We can point it away from people! So, here is a picture of Will with his new toy. Then, there's a video to show how this tee has improved his "driving".
Like all other toys with small children as owners, the tee has gone missing since we have purchased this. But, I found it last night in his room under his bed. This means that he must have been sleeping with the tee.
Bobcat's hard core. He eats, breathes, and sleeps golf.

... and then I was Tagged.

Keaven tagged me!!

My 3 joys:
1- Matt and William and Lily
2- The Gospel
3- Reading good books

My 3 Fears:
1- Having someone close to me pass away.
2- Drowning. Hence, I am afraid of water. I have panic attacks in the water- unless I have a life jacket on or something.
3- SNAKES! Slithery, scaly skin. YUCK! They gross me out and scare me to death!

My 3 current obsessions:
1- I Love to blog. It gives me a chance to share pictures of my kids and practice writing. I also like to look at other peoples blogs too. It's fun to see what everyone is up to.
2- Twilight Saga. Okay, it's been a while since I first read the series, but I can't help but still love the books. I'm on my 4th read through of the 1st three books. Oh, and saying that I'm obsessed with Twilight really means that I'm obsessed with Edward.
3- New/Different kind of music. I love finding a cool new song to get into.

My 3 surprising facts:
1- I would love to eventually go to college. I would really love to major in English Lit. and minor in Dance. We'll see how it goes. It'll probably be a while, so Dance may be out of the equation for me.
2- I want to be finished having children by the time I'm 28.
3- I'm scared stiff to move across country!! I'm excited too. It's just a little daunting to think about what we're actually doing.

I tag whoever would like to do this.

The Tale of Matthew and his Truck named Potato

Matt bought a truck for $1100 from a man that my dad worked with. Maybe that's what all men truly mean when they say they're going to go "look" at something. When he came home, he rushed inside to come get me to see his purchase that he was so proud of. It was a 1988 Toyota pick-up truck and it was the same model as the one in Back to the Future, which Matt later confessed that he's always wanted.
I didn't mind that he bought a car for so cheap, considering that we only had one car. I only had William at the time, but I was expecting Lily that next month. It was nice to think that I could have my car and Matt could have his.
I hurried and put my shoes on and walked outside to see this number. "You spent $1100 on this?" were the first words out of my mouth. It wasn't the excited "man, you got a deal" reaction more as it was the disgusted "you actually paid money for this?" reaction. Matt didn't let me get him down.
"Yeah, isn't it awesome?!" was his response.
"You spent $1100 on a truck with a wooden bed. It looks like a farmer's truck. Are you hauling produce around? It looks like something that would carry potatoes. This is a potato truck."
And so it was thus named by me.
The potato truck obviously ran, but it certainly needed a lot of work. Matt and my dad were willing to put in the time, money, and energy into doing it. They started with the muffler and some undercarriage work. Then, Matt bought a new truck bed from the same fellow as the truck.

They installed it.

Primed it.

Painted it.

This truck ended up being Matt's inanimate object of affection. Unfortunately, with us moving, Matt made the decision to sell his potato truck. If he did that, then it would become official for us to move. We would have the money to move to Utah as we feel is right for our family.

To me, and many others, I'm sure, it's only a truck. To Matt though, I think it was like notches down from selling one of his own children.

It was sold to a man named Julio for $3000. (Nice profit, huh?) Mr. Julio was impressed with it, made the comment that these trucks last forever, and said that he was shipping it off to Guatemala.

I never liked the truck, but I found myself sad because I know Matt had to sacrifice something that he loved for our family. I have to admit though, it did look better when they finished than I ever thought was capable. Matt's an amazing guy to do that for us.

So, the potato truck - or camion de patata, if you will - is no more.

Although it's been a couple of weeks, there are times when Matt will tell me that Julio "better take care of that truck."

Goodbye Potato Truck. Believe it or not, you're missed by all of us! Good luck below the border!