I'm REALLY Not Good at This

Sidenote: This may be boring. If it is, I refer you to the title.

Matt and I have known for about 5 months that we were moving to Utah. I cried a few times about it and then just left it at that. I got to work trying to get things in order for it and with two children, my mind has been more than occupied. It's only been the last couple of days that the tiny breakdowns have been sneaking up on me. I haven't allowed my mind to go to certain things and different events have brought them to the surface.

Sunday, we had a surprise party! Krystin pulled together a surprise party with our family, for us! It was so much fun. We had dinner and visited with family. We received this super cool poster too. It has a candy note on the back. I should have written it down so I could put what it said on here, but too late because, guess what? It's packed! I held it together pretty well. No tears. That's not to say that I wasn't sad. It just hadn't hit me yet. I still don't think it's hit me totally. Cute, huh?

I visited with my 92-year-old Grandmother on Monday. William loves her and I think it has something to do with the fact that she gives him m&ms. Lily had a harder time at first, but she warmed up to Grandmother and gave her hugs and kisses. After we left, I had the first of my tiny breakdowns.

Yesterday was Savannah's 13th birthday! It was fun to go and spend more time with family. The Richardson's are so fun. I have loved getting closer to them and both of my kids love them! We had cake and ice cream and Savannah opened presents. We gave hugs and we left. -#2 of my tiny breakdowns when we got to the car.

Party on, Savannah, party on.

Here is Matt and Lily at Savannah's party. I couldn't help but to put it on here. I thought it was a good picture of them.

Last night, after we went to Savannah's party, we went to see Grandmama. It was great to visit with her and my kids love her. We got to take the red rocking chair that's in the picture home with us too. It's perfect size for Lily. Uncle Don and Aunt Lynda joked around with us, so it was a little easier saying goodbye.

We are leaving tomorrow, so I'm not sure when I'll be able to get another post up. But, Tennessee has been great for us and I know that there are so many reasons for coming out here. I won't put a list because I'm sure people are bored of this post. I know that we're supposed to move to Utah and we'll have reasons reveal themselves to us as they come, I'm sure.

Honestly, Matt and I really aren't good with saying "goodbye". Is anybody, really? I have so many mixed emotions, it's kind of hard to force myself to feel one feeling at a time. Does that make sense? I'm not sure the overwhelming outburst of tears will come until we're out in Utah and my parents aren't there. I guess we'll see.

I am going to miss my family. They are amazing people and my best friends. It's going to be hard to leave them. I'm not one to put my heart out on the line, but if walls could talk, you would all know how much I love you and will miss you. We'll miss our friends out here too. Fortunately, some of both parties are going to be moving to Utah soon!